Friday, 12 July 2013

First Love and the consequent heart break....

Boring. Yes, boring is the word that best describes her. Boring, not so pretty, really low on self-esteem, introvert to the highest degree. Last year of high school, it was just her books and her friends that mattered in her life. What she would be doing after high school? She always aspired to do engineering like her brother but fate had something else planned out for her and she landed in the city’s most elite college to study the most sought after under graduate course. After studying in an all girls’ school for 13 years, getting into a Co-education college was a drastic change, never having interacted with the opposite gender that much, she found it a little difficult to adjust herself. However, eventually she made friends with three girls and hung around with them and the college time seemed to fly away with all the fun and frolic. 

As life would have it, one day she met this guy whom she found cute. She had never had felt so strongly about anyone before but going telling him how she feels for him was out of question. So, she decided to be his friend, talk to him about himself, his family, and his ambitions as deep down she knew that she wasn't the prettiest girl to be asked out by a guy like him. She was happy with being just friends. They started talking over messages, day and night. Her life revolved around him. From good morning to good night, they used to talk every minute of the day. Days, months passed by and while talking, the boy asked her what kind of guy does she like? She described him, as he was the one she liked for so long. The boy smiled and continued talking. The suddenly he tells her that he wants her to be his and asks her if she’d like to be his girlfriend. She couldn't believe her ears; it was like all she had wished for came true. Her happiness showed in her eyes and this is how her first relationship started, with the guy she secretly dreamed of. Life seemed so beautiful, time passed by but something was still missing. She wasn't completely sure if he was hers ‘cause he still hadn't said those three golden words to him. Almost 5 months had gone by and she started feeling more than liking for him and just couldn't stop herself, so one evening she decided to say it all to him the next day. Writing down how she feels on a piece of paper, she starts practicing, how she is going to say it to him, she is all excited and nervous. That very she gets a message from him saying that he want to tell her something the next day and says good night and goes off to sleep. Clueless about what he would have to say, she messages him good night and get backs to her practice, she doesn't want to fumble when she speaks out her heart to him. She starts getting sleepy but the excitement of tomorrow doesn't let her sleep. 


The next day she wakes up early and messages him “Good Morning”. She gathers all her courage and is about to say what she had been practice the entire evening the previous day, but gets nervous and decides against it. She changes the topic and asks him what he had wanted to tell her the previous evening, he is reluctant but she insists and she can’t believe what she just read, her happiness is boundless, it’s like she is still asleep. After 5 months of dating. He finally said those words to her which she had wanted to say to him for quite some time. Suddenly everything seemed so beautiful, she was the happiest girl ever, she was in LOVE and the one she loved was also in love with her. Now it was not just “I miss you” she could now say “I love you” to him and he was just hers. He did everything to make her feel special and loved. She was his world and he, hers. Days, weeks, months passed by and she never felt better, she started imagining about little joys she’d share with him when they’d be together, the things they’d talk about. He made her feel so loved and she was the happiest girl, however, as all good things come to an end so did her fairy-tale love story. 

Suddenly, nothing seemed right and things stopped working, he wanted to take a “break” and her world came crashing down. The person around whom her life revolved for almost two years was no longer hers. She did everything to pursue him but she failed; now she had to start her life all over again, without him. It was life she had no idea what to do with her life anymore. But no matter what hardships come into one’s life, one has to keep moving forward because life goes on no matter what. And this is what she did, took her few months and lots of tearful nights but she finally did and the thing that helped her through was this “Hello” message she received over this social networking website she used to visit frequently…

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